wasting away half term days watching twin peaks

on half term/mid semester break and i have all these things/essays/tasks looming over my head but instead i've spent the first week doing fuck all, watching netflix, and occasionally making mediocre art.

i started watching twin peaks again(idk why i ever stopped?) and its the perfect time for it. the colours, the reds, the soundtrack/music, the softness is EVERYTHING

obsessed with josie packard omg babe *a lil ode 2 her thru stills*

POWAH SUIT

 literal scream

 ...IS THIS...

...NOT ME...

...THOUGH???

 MY BB AUDREY HORNE (those pink and reds tho)

 *when u try to stop smoking but then twin peaks comes along and goes all lana del rey romanticisation on u*

i love the constant references that david lynch makes about dreams and visions. s2 is very trippy and weird but wonderful.

also i've been writing A LOT. they're getting me somewhere.. i don't know where yet but yeah, somewhere. and they're mostly a weird in between of prose, poetry and note taking. i need to take more photographs. but first i gotta get my shit together for uni applications tbh

sophia

pic i took in switzerland last month

p.s. SULA COLLECTIVE (that I co-run) IS LOOKING FOR ART + WRITING SUBMISSIONS FROM PEOPLE OF COLOUR FOR NOVEMBER'S ISSUE. 

THEME IS: MENTAL HEALTH

below is the call 4 subs poster, go to sulacollective.com for more info

melting

watercolours from a while ago

sooo i finally finished my exams a few weeks ago + then some stressful/gross/traumatising things were happening @ school and it basically consumed me until now /// thankfully i only have 2 days left and i'll be on holidays. i'm just gonna spend my july being creative and reading lots. someone was talking abt how reading is such a large part of liberation (makes sense tbh). so just want to be constantly educating myself, learning more and making art. wanna go through rolls and rolls of film + experiment more w/ photo processes, also planning to do collab stuff w/ other art bebes [hmu if yr in london/uk and wanna do art stuff together/model 4 me]. n will be filming a project i'm doing on east asian girlzzzz in london!! otherwise i just want to be free from stress and just love myself for a while cos i need it. i feel so drained, so tired of everything. its super hot these days and my window is always open now, wind flowing through. i feel like i'm melting away w/ everything else in the city but seeing old friends and just being w/ people who really support my truth + get me is so nice and good for the soul. been feeling a lot of things nonstop so i'm trying to breathe now, lie on the grass, usual summer things...


i'm too tired to add lots of links but here are some interesting or important things 2 check out:

• Darkmatter spoken word/ slam poetry on youTube. their work abt colonialism, trans identity, queer identity, politics etc. is so on point, saw them perform @ goldsmiths uni and was blown away
• Shura's music. i'm rly into her songs atm and the video for 'touch' is !!!
• Lianne la havas's new music. her music videos are also simple but so beautiful. excited for the album
• "Colonialism was not just about colonising whiteness, but about colonising the gender binary model." - interview w/ Laverne Cox in the Guardian
• been going through the queer films on netflix. i would recommend if ur desperate/bored but honestly all of them are SO bad. (apart from the classics like 'but I'm a cheerleader') they all have really sad endings or the age gap is reaaally big
• just finished 'feminism is for everybody' - bell hooks (its p accessible to read but also substantial), other things i'm currently reading-- 'zami' - audre lorde. 'women who run with the wolves' - clarissa pinkola estes. 'colonialism/postcolonialism' - ania loomba
• Adult magazine's panel on consent, rape, sexual assault, rape culture (TW)
• Sensei Aishitemasu's youTube channel. her YT desc says "your woke big sister". been watching her videos since december ish. she has taught me more abt race issues, anti-blackness, police brutality etc than school ever could. although lots of her videos are really long, i never notice it tbh

photo i took of emma 2 months ago